Its Christmas time! Today is Christmas Eve and my Christmas spirit is drowning in the depths of my sorrows, misery and helplessness. Today is Christmas Eve and I will overcome my emotions and issues to celebrate the birth of Christ and live devoid of how bad, sad and frustrated I feel. Its time to spread the love around and that is exactly what I will do. Wait… haven’t I being doing that already? Merry Chrstmas everyone. Peace, Happiness and Love to all.

How you ever felt happy whilst sorrow makes its mark on your face? I just did when I heard a very old song by the Backstreet Boys. Was busy working on my assignment and the music was on Shuffle. That song just caught me by surprise. My initial reaction was to change the song, cause quite frankly I don’t like to reminiscence about my past, but then again I don’t wanna run away either. Listening to that song only made me realize that there are a lot of things that I haven’t completely dealt with in my past. A lot of things that should have been done were not done. A lot of things that needed to be said were not said. Anger gripped my senses and yet I was still mellow about these thoughts, simply because it brought back the best times of my life in college. My biggest problem is that the sweetest memories are the most painful ones. I can’t let them go simply because they are the only ones that matter the most to me. So until I don’t find a solution to this - I’ll just have to live with them. Thank God I'm heading out to Pune for the weekend, just wanna destress and most of all... rest.

Tears roll down my cheeks for you girl.
I feel your pain.
I feel your loss.
I feel you baby.
Does it still haunt you? Does it still hurt?
Well then hold my hand.
Let's move on with the LOVE I have for you.
Trust me baby I ain't gonna play you like them fools and you know that.

Ay yo you...now see most cats would take advantage of you right now
But I aint gonna do that
I'ma give you the game right
I'ma give it to you because
I would want somebody to give my lil girl the game
When she done found her S-E-X

Life's a trip
Virgin just turned 17 and finally got some hips
Hustla's on the block go crazy when you lick your lips
But they just want relations they don't want relationships
Welcome to the real world
It aint the same
Fellas old enough to be yo daddy know your name
Everybody's talkin about how much that girl done changed
Can't quite put your finger on it but you feel it's strange
LIke it's fire in your veins

Girl that's just ur S-E-X
Mama's secret
And daddy's gon' go crazy when he finds out that his baby
Found her S-E-X
Take a deep breath
and think before you let it go

The block is packed
Baby got an attitude and proud to holla back
Mama's givin advice but she aint tryin to hear that
Not because it's wrong, just her delivery is whack
"Shaye get yo behind in this house
If I see you with another boy I swear..."
Life is rough
You say that you're not ready for sex but you're in love
He says if you really loved him you would give it up
Mama says thats just a line guys use to get yo stuff
Which one will you trust

Aye yo Lyfe, she might take it better comin from a woman
See he'll tell you all kind of things to get in your pants, yeah
Baby it's a fact that once it's gone you'll never get it back
Hold on to your innocence, use your common sense, you're worth waiting for
Be strong, honey don't give in, blessings come with patience
Till we meet again I'm prayin for you