I hate it sometimes when I hear songs that just remind me about the past. A past that had such sweet lovely memories of the times you've shared with love ones. I'm talking about my college days. I just got my hands on the OST of You've Got Mail. One of my favourite movies. Infact I wanted to go for this movie with the one who stole my heart, in a theatre out here but then again this is India and no theatre out here must have screened this movie, so it didn't happen. Some songs in this movie only remind me about her. Everytime I hear those songs I just kinda get thrown back in time and just reminisces for a while. And when the song ends it back to my lonesome reality. I really like the songs but it's just filled with so much of meaning and painful memories that it really makes it hard for me to like them. Kind of like sweet poison... Kinda like love... >=(

We all have to make the walk through life. The road ahead is long and lonesome. Some have some one to walk along side with, whilst other’s (like myself who is still single) make the walk alone. There are some friends who I’ve left behind while some have taken another road. Sometimes I wonder which road I’m supposed to take… Aahhh!!! The crossroads of life!!!

Am i putting people through phases? i try my best to be with you and give you my all. but when i ain't near you don't be depressed, cause there's another person who needs me as much as you do. please understand. i still want to be by your side. i will come to you. Just don't shut the door when i come knocking... >=|

Lay down my head,
Burdened with thoughts,
Trying to find solutions,
To fights that were fought.

Mistakes were made,
On both sides that's true,
But hurt me for what,
Just cause i stand by you?

Why the fuck am i emotional,
I hate that in me,
Wish i was stone hearted,
Then let's see you hurt me.

I try not to hurt,
And i hardly get angry,
Why take advantage,
And of all, why me?

I want you for comfort,
I want you to hold,
I want you with me,
Cause my world is so cold.

Don't have a family,
Thought i'd come to you,
You've got issues of your own,
Where do i turn too.

Be by my side,
In every step in life,
Huh! Heard the same shit,
From someone i called wife.

I'm sorry to everyone who reads this... but i needed to vent out somewhere. Just had to get this off my chest and mind. I'm glad you are with me... my blog...

Heck i make one small little mistake and everyone's making it a very big deal. wtf maaan... small request to all who read this... if i make a mistake please put yourself in my place and tell me if you like being yelled at? ok so you can't put your thoughts into words... nobody can... not even me at times... but yet when i need to get my point across i can do it without causing pain? please understand .. please be gentle... i hurt easy... >=(

Somethings are Strange... I'm Just One Of Them... why am i saying this again... cause we celebrated a friends birthday... at a POLICE STATION!!! >=) Happie Birfday Ketan...

Mature pictures... not for the faint hearted

Today is a very luck and not so lucky day for me. I met with my very first accident today. It happened at 09:15. I was hit by a Green Santro driven by a Mr. Vilas Shirsekar (Liscense plate number MH04AW7792) Our boy happens to make a left turn into the building by driving out completely to the center of the road. He doesn’t indicate and claims that I was going really fast. Fact was that he was in the middle of the road, didn’t indicate when turning and then says it was my fault. Ya rite riding at the speed of 35Kmph and falling 15 feet away from his car while the bike skid and landed about 30 feet away from me!! Anyways I’m feeling bad that my best formal wear got torn and my brother’s bike got damaged. >=( .. I’m ok… got a few bruses but nothing major. Realized something today that I need to enjoy life to it’s fullest.. I was lucky this time that nothing serious happened to me (like what happened to another good friend of mine). I just want other’s to realize that life’s too short and I want to make them realize that each of them are special to me, before my time is over. To all I’ve shared a relationship with. I appreciate your presence in my life and I just want to tell each of you that I am happy that I got a chance to know you… as a grandson…. as a brother…. as a lover… as a son… as a friend… Glad I got to know you….

It sure has been a long time since I’ve posted and yes it sure has been a long time since I made a new friend. I’m not going to reveal her name (security issues… hahahaha… that’s too convenient). We don’t get to spend a lot of time together but for that moment when we converse, it’s special. I’m not even going to fill the blog with more details about her. I’ll just refer to her as that special friend. On the other side of life, things are ok. My last weekend was very bad. Got caught by the cops since not all of the bike papers were in order. Two of my superiors had to come help me out. It’s was humiliating (cause the cops were actually having a good time listening to me speak in Hindi) and even more humiliating because there was inconvenience caused to two of my superiors. Pretty screwed weekend. But it’s over now. Next weekend has an interesting line of events that are yet to occur. Can’t wait for next weekend. I had mentioned in the past that the only reason I blog is cause I don’t have anyone to talk too. Well of recently I’ve been sharing a lot of things with snowflake. She’s been there when times get hard for me. I’m happy I have a few friends still here with me. Thank God for friends. Me Happie!!!

Now i can post my blog at anytime i want... cause i tog eht tenretni ta emoh... GO FIGURE!!! >=)

So i've hit full time work and have really created a good impression over here at work. The user's like the work i do and i'm cool with everyone. just don't get that much time to share things on the blog anymore.

MY MOST HECTIC DAY EVER…SO FAR!!!

My sequence of events since the 28th of September 2005.
09:00 – Wake up and play Unreal Tournament on the computer (CTF).
14:00 – Reach work and work???
19:00 – Go to meet my new family member Snowflake.
20:00 – Still with Snowflake
21:00 – Sharing emotions with Snowflake
22:00 – Putting Snowflake to sleep ( I actually sang a song and put her to sleep)
23:00 – Leave Snowflake with her BOYfriend and play NFSUG on the CBZ
23:30 – Reach Bandra with cold chills running all over.
00:00 – Start working on some data and the computer.
01:00 – Still working on the computer
02:30 – Still working on the computer
03:00 – Take a 5 mins break
03:05 – Resume working on the computer
04:00 – Take a 10mins break both me and the computer
04:10 – Resume working on the computer
06:25 – Finish working with the data and the computer.
06:30 – Leave for Kandivali on the CBZ (NFSUG PartII)
07:15 – Reach Kandivali and meet brother.
07:30 – Leave with brother from Kandivali to meet up with Snowflake for tea.
07:50 – Reach Delton at Jogeshwari Highway where he took a rick to work
08:00 – Meetup with snowflake and her BOYfriend.
08:30 – Snowflake wakes up and gets ready to go to work
09:00 – BOYfriend gets up and get ready to leave
09:05 – Having tea with them two
09:10 – Leave for Bandra with Snowflake
09:45 – Reach snowflake at work and come home assuming to sleep.
09:50 – Give data to Mustu.
09:55 – Have to come up with a huge amount.
10:15 – Arranged for part of the huge amount but the other part’s at Kandivali
10:30 – Leave for Kandivali to get the other amount.
11:15 – Get caught by cops for not wearing a helmet.
11:30 – Another cop pulls me over for not wearing a helmet. (JINKS!!)
12:00 – Reach and obtain the remaining amount.
12:15 – Meet and speak with Deepti. No answers for her actions of standing me up.
12:16 – FUCK IT!!!
12:20 – Leave the girl alone.
12:45 – Eat food.
13:10 – Leave for work
14:30 – Reach work and sitting here posting.

Prediction for the rest of the day:

18:00 – Leave work and go home and wait for Snowflake to call up
19:00 – Snowflake calls says would appreciate if company could be with her to Kandivali
19:15 – Meet her and take her to Kandivali
20:30 – Reach Kandivali with Snowflake
21:30 or later – Get her back home and probably dine with her
22:30 – Leave for home
23:15 – Show get some sleep

All i want is a little peace and love!! Is that too much i ask of you??? >=| cause you know that i've given you love in abundance even when you don't ask...

Now i usually don't drink and choose not too... but just for kicks i kinda pushed myself to the limit. Kinda of like to see how well i can control myself... it's something i'm not proud off but it's a learning experience... i'm about 56kilos (God know when that's gonna increase) and i stand 5 feet 10.5 inches tall. How the heck i managed to stand and control myself with 1/2 a litre of RUM (NEAT) is something i still can't understand... guess there is a GOD after all who cares for me. Uuhhh!!!... hence forth given the option to choose between staying sane or going insane i'll choose to be SANE. Sorry Shweta that's why i couldn't come to meet you in the afternoon today... >=(

For the past 3 years on this very same day your thoughts cross my mind and your absence is felt the strongest... How can a feeling be so deep? How can a love be so strong? How can you still cloud my mind sometimes? How come i can't let go off you completely? How come you aren't by my side... my Mushie Bear??? >=(

I like the new personality i've put on... it's just feels great!!! i met up with an old college sweetie and she also added to the joy saying that i was an honest thinker and acted honestly, AND that i haven't changed in appearence ever since college ended... either she was telling the truth or the statement "Guys are just that easy to bluff" is SO TRUE!! Either ways i felt nice when i spoke to her. It's great recalling the college days... i had gone to fix a clients computer the other day and the lady gave me my remuneration, along with some chocolates... Hmmm... guess i haven't aged since college after all.. so she wasn't lying!!!A=B, B=C Hence A=C .... lol!!! >=D

Not that i want something bad to happen to me, but ever since the beginning of this month, i've turned over a new leaf. I've become a more joyful person to be around and i've become much more stupid and funnie than i ever was. I know finally realise that it gives me much more joy if i make the others around me happy and that's the way i want it to be... just hope it lasts... >=|

The last 3 days there was nothing but a series of bad incidents, which rocked Mumbai. Here is my part of the story.

26th July 2005 – I come to work at 13:30 and it’s starting to rain outside. I come into work and start the daily routine. At about 15:30 the office declares a holiday because of heavy rains outside. I didn’t think that it was that heavy and said it was pointless leaving right now and resumed working till about 16:30. At that time the lights in the entire building went out. I went up stairs to find out what went wrong and then saw that the whole of Santacruz had lost electricity. Since there was nothing better to do I decided to finally leave for home. Another work mate accompanied me till Khar after that I was on my own. As I left work it was only then that I saw the water level for myself. I stand 5’10” and the water level was till my chest. It was pouring heavily and there were cars that were completely submerged in water. I had never seen anything like this before in my life. It took me a good 1.5 hours to reach home safely. Whilst on my way home I stopped to check on my friend and found out that she was a little ill and still at work. I reached home and when I was approaching to my place I got a little paranoid about the water doing damage to my building. When I got home I saw that the water levels were just ankle high. I thanked God that nothing severe happened out there. We had to electricity for a good 17hours from the time I reached home. I called up a few friends to find out how things were at their places. A good friends house and shop were flooded pretty bad. The house survived but the shop got screwed. Well I went to sleep that night without any electricity. The next day I rose without a decent nights sleep and met up with a friend… I called some more friends up to find out how things were but just got bad news… My close friends friend passed away because she drowned… her name was Minal and I knew here. She was a very sweet person and it was shocking when I heard that she passed away… I never knew that the rains could be so bad… Today after 3 days things are simmering down but the death toll is pretty high… here are some of the stats I managed to pickup from the news.

This was the highest amount of rainfall Mumbai had ever received. Approx. 37inches of rain.

The death toll caused by the rains stand at 452. The PM had offered relief of 1 lakh to the dead peoples families and 50,000 to the physically disabled.

Major landslides at Saki Naka.

Due to rumors of a dam bursting and a tsunami approaching claimed the lives of 18 people caused by a stampede.

In conclusion I would like to put up a prayer for Minal.

“Eternal rest give unto her, Oh Lord, Let the perpetual light shine upon her. May her soul rest in peace. Amen.” – Even though you are away your memories will be with us always. We will miss you Minal…. >=(

More results... Congratulations to both of y'all... >=)

Please answer... are these pictures REAL or 3D??? You'd be surprised... >=)