An educational post here... Especially to people of the illerate kind. Fuck emailing me, you guys can't even post a frikin silly hi in the comments. Every comment on the dam page reads as ZERO. Surprisingly only one female posted and she wasn't even a friend???... Madar Chods... i've just been realising new things as days go by about the so called good and dear friends i have as of now, just some of them not all of them. Fuck it i'm in too good a mood to waste my time and energy typing about them now. I went to Pune this weekend and it was a wonderful trip. Had alot of quality time to myself and that was just what was needed. (I WISH YOU WERE THERE VILAS' OLD BUDDIE) Arey the new place it a frikin MANSION. Your parents have done a superb/spectacular/JAW-DROPPING job on the mansion. Can't wait to go back there again. Vilas' dad has put an awesome music system in the hall. Whilst there the only comic relief i had was with Vilas' Sister, his two doggies Snoopie and Truffle, and Harsha (who lives in Pune, got a chance to speak to her over the phone and had a hilarious and sweet conversation with her). Pune is too relaxing. 1 hour in Pune felt like 3 hours. Man i'm so gonna go back there again in May... >=)

I think Hotmail's lost their mangoes maan!!... when i signed into my hotmail account today at about 17:45, i checked the storage capacity and it showed 250MB.... >=O i was shocked and was momentarily excited with the extra space they gave. But i thought it was too good to be true. I signed out and signed back in only to get disappointed, as the storage capacity was still at 2MB... on the brighter side of life GMAIL's offering about 2067MB the last time i checked... WELL GUESS WHAT !!!... if you go to this site you'll be surprised with what they have to offer now... check it out y'all

gmail.google.com

Cuz life can just get that fucked up sometimes.... >=(

In Loneliness I seek,
A Friend I can't find,
Who'd hold my hand,
And say things would be fine.

Just messaging to say,
I wish you were here,
For in Loneliness I seek,
And I wish you were near.

(Surprisingly after i sent this message to my friends, i got a ton of messages back. The message just went out to one special lost friend. For kicks i forwarded it to a few others. Not that i didn't need their friendship, but it was an eye opener for me. (i've been feeling a little neglected these days... waaahhhh!!! =( ... but i don't care now.) Thanks to Sabina who actually called me up at about 00:00 and asked me whether i was ok... she's a sweetheart sometimes. Others like Ahsrah, Imhsar, Ateem, Inar and Anpaws really put a smile on my face. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!)

I wonder if anyone comes here and reads my blog? Somehow this place is the only way i can put my point across to some people. Ahhh FUCK IT!! Well i went around reading other blogs and i came across this one that had a link to another site. Its a little quiz to give you a little insight about yourself. This is what the quiz did to me:

You are lightskyblue
Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.

Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

Now.... WHAT DA FUCK IS SATURATION??? >=|

Now this post is gonna hurt a few people so read at your own risk.
I went looking for the meaning of friendship today. I stumbled on this one site and it had this line about friendship on it. "A friend is someone who we turn to when our spirits need a lift." Not that i wanna boast about myself, but i know i definitely fit that postion of a friend with respect to this statement today, Earlier i know that i didn't fit this description. What bother's me now is how many of my "so called true and geniune friends" have fit that description (Once again this message goes out to only a few of my so called true and geniune friends). I sit to recall what i've done for them and what they have done for me. I don't wanna be judging them nor am i saying that they haven't done anything for me, but i can clearly say that comparatively, they ain't doing shit. Maybe i'm the one giving them all the fucking importance that they've got so fucking used to it that now they've just assumed that i'll be their fucking doormat to wipe their fucking shit on. So is this what their friendship with me is all about. Man i miss my friends that i had in college. Especially Russell. He was the closest friend i had. Yes had, because i know i hardly did my part in being a good friend to him, and now he's gone. Shit if i could only make him realise how sorry i am for the way i treated his friendship. I guess i won't be given that opportunity. Coming back to my friends, huh what to say to you guys. I just hope y'all realise how you guys aren't there when i need you guys to be there. I can't even recall the last time my friends came up to me and asked me," Denver tell me something about what's happening with you?" Well maybe they have but then as i start talkin about it the topic just diverts and it falls down to what they wanna talk about. Man fuck it i don't wanna be thinkin about it... All i can do is say nothing to them cause when i try to put my point across to them, they'll probably say why don't you understand my point of view Denver... like fuck i never do... >=( Life is living hell right now... Like Love... Friendship with a few friends (and not all) is like SWEET POISON.

Holi's around the corner and apparently our country's government has banned water balloons. Wonder what we are gonna use now... anyways it don't bother me cause i'm gonna be soaking people with buckets of water tomorrow. Watch out for the Denver, Fool!! >= (Ok the only reason i am unable to put down my thoughts right now is because i'm at a friends place and i'm listenin to HINDI F*&^$%G Music - See Shweta i'm controlling my language!!) So far i've abused about 5 times in the past day... what an accomplishment.!!! >=)

Yeah there’s no doubt that the Nokia N-Gage QD is one of those must have devices. It’s total T.P. I’ve already got Worms World Party and The Sims Bustin Out. Pretty neat games (especially Worms World Party, the sound them worms make is hilarious) and I’m surprised with the graphics that little thing can render. (singing) And I think to myself, what a wonderful world (singing) Oh Joy!!! >=) My QD is pretty much loaded, got the antivirus software in, the ogg player, video player, videos, pictures, file explorer, games, hmmm… I wonder what else??? Have I missed out on anything yet??? (And so I commence thinking about what to do next…)

Ah the Nokia N-Gage QD is the best thing that has happened to me this birthday. Infact i metup with a lotta old friends and enjoyed myself in the evening this 13th of March 2005. Thanks to all of you guys who didn't realise that it was my birthday, i still love ya... >=) so what if you forgot, no issues, there's always next year. Shoutouts : To Sabina and Jyoti and a very big Thank You for making me look like a fuckin fag on my birthday (apparently they got me something i hate the most... FLOWERS!! YELLOW FUCKING FLOWERS!!! But i still love you guys... and held the YELLOW FUCKING FLOWERS with Pride). And the biggest word of Thanks goes out to ma hommie Craig. Thanks to KB,Shweta,Kiran,Mayank,Rajeshree, Devesh (and his sisters) and Payal for the shirt and the little cake surprise on the DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY!!! Overall it was fun. Another year gone, another year of painful and happy memories gone... >=|

She has come into my life. I LOVE HER!! Her name : Nokia N-GageQD (with a 128MB Memory Card and i've also got myself a USB Bluetooth Dongle for my computer so that i can transfer stuff to and from the PC.) This birthday indeed is going to be a happy one... >=)

I know I haven’t been posting up for a while now. That’s because I’ve planned something big for myself this birthday. I just hope that it works and goes according to my plans. I’m so anxious about her. Can’t wait for her to come into my life. I guess my life will be complete with her by my side. I seriously dream about her each and everyday these past few weeks, that’s what, is occupying my attention. Infact I’ve already gotten too attached and too in love with her. The only thing that fears me is if she isn’t going to be mine. But I’ll make sure that it doesn’t happen. I will make her my own… wanna know her name. Check this site again next month… cuz that’s when you will find out what’s been in my head and my heart all this while... Better yet... WHO HAS BEEN FILLING UP MY SENSES WITH JOY.... >=)

I LOVE MY PETS...


This is my Peggie


This is my Sniffer

Have you ever given your age a serious thought? One actually fails to realise that time is slipping by. Yesterday I had a revelation when I said that I’m just 22 years old… that statement fell like an H-Bomb. I know that it’s still a pretty young age I am at, but am I actually pretty young? Least of all… PRETTY??? In both cases, I don’t think so. I feel young but it’s the mind that’s getting old… man now I’ve got to start thinking about the future and settling down and shit… can’t be… I think I just need to calm down and chill for a while… I’m gonna konk off at the age of 60 so 60-22 give me about 38 years… WOW that is a long time… Whew! I just scared myself for nothing… nothing’s changed here… just age… >=)

The road can be a very dangerous place to walk on if a woman is behind the wheel… check this incident out. I almost got knocked by a crazie ass woman driver today on my walk to work in the morning. In addition to that, as I was about to cross an intersection I saw another woman driver racing at me. I stopped and allowed her to pass before I made it to the other side of the road. As she passed by she gave me a warm smile (either because she thought of me as a gentlemen or she must have said to herself, “You got lucky bucko! The next guy won’t be so luckie.”) As she passed by and zoomed away (probably to kill someone else) I smiled and said to myself thank God I’m still alive… (My thoughts were still the same… no two ways about it…) >=)

It's a fact. Most women tend to walk diagonally on the road. If y'all can't walk straight don't think that driving is going to be easy. I mean fuck if it wasn't for the footpath i stood on, then i'd surely be a goner today...

This sure has been a very long week. I’ve got so involved with work that its actually helped me forget a few painful past incidents (well not completely but comparatively there has been a change). I went up to the terrace for lunch (that’s where the employees go for their meals) and as I sat there it was very peaceful with no one around. For the first time I was actually at peace since the beginning of this year. No frikin tensions of any sort. I didn’t actually let them resurface. I like being alone these days… I have no reason for choosing to be alone. The terrace nowadays seems like the perfect place where I can go and relax, you know kinda chill out for a while, just get away from all the pain, suffering and shit. Come to think about it for the amount of pain and crap I went through from the beginning of this year, I would probably be living on that terrace… >=

…And so begins my struggle to get what I want at this point in my life. My prime focus is getting that sweet active subwoofer home before my birthday comes (my gift to myself). I’ve already planned out all the expenses and incomes, and done some major cost cuttings. I already feel a great sense of pride in what I do these days. I sit and think about what I have purchased out of my own hard earned money. Let’s see… upgrade the computer, bought a HDD, a CDRW, tons of blank CD’s, TV Tuner Card, Disc Man, Mini boom box, re-coned a pair of ancient 30WRMS speakers, MY SWEET XBOX (which is still at Vilas’ place). Soon I’ll be adding a 140WRMS amplifier and a 150WRMS active subwoofer… I can truly say that I am proud of what I have achieved. Oh I can’t wait for that day to arrive when I come home with the sub. It surely would bring me a great deal of satisfaction. But in order to get that I have to struggle and so begins my struggle to get…. (Read from the beginning of this post… >=)

Note to self... You are not an insomniac... >=)

Oh by the way check out this awesome car my buddie Vilas is working on... picture this on the streets y'all...

02:30 in the morning and my eyelids are starting to get heavy. The struggle to stay awake now as I sit in front of my computer screen at work is not a grave one, since I’ve tuned into hot108 jams on the Internet. I ponder as to why am I doing something like this. Guess I just enjoy doing unexpected things. (Please excuse this post since its fatigue and a whole lotta emotions getting the best of me right now). Just finished typing in about 112 sheets of songs into an Excel Sheet (each sheet containing at least 5 songs while others went up to 50 amounting to about 800+ songs). My fingers are sore and so is my ass… >=( … Got to make it till at least 04:30am so that I can call my superior who blessed me with this task and tell him that the work is completed. He told me that he wanted the job done before tomorrow morning. Tis truly a dogs life I live. The only moment of relief in the past 2 days came from Harsha (shoutout to Harsha - thanks for the conversation, that was just what I needed to get my mind of things…) Life can seriously get one so fucked up in the head sometimes. I’m turning over a new leaf as this month begins. Gonna give my work all the attention as possible and dream at night of my sweet active subwoofer. “Baby you will be mine for sure…”

15 mins left before the next day can start. Been at work from 14:00 to 23:45 at this point. Did a lotta work with a lot of shit running in the back of my head. Somehow I’ve tried to segregate the two from mixing but hey pobody’s nerfect… hehehehe… I like being alone these days, I finally realize the amount of time I can devote to things I like to do. I’ve read up on how to buy the appropriate active sub-woofer (which I intend to gift myself this birthday as I turn 23 years old). Infact I’m planning to get rid of my old AIWA NSX-KT9 system (which apparently claims to deliver 185w/ch x 2 of bass and 40w/ch x 2 of high and mid frequency, amounting to a total of 225WRMS of music power… which by far is fuckin bullcrap, motherfuckers at AIWA know shit). I revived my father’s old pair of music speakers. Borrowed a SONY amp (140WRMS), hooked them up and got a decent effect. Now I intend to by a 150WRMS Active Subwoofer and a brand new amplifier. Later on I’ll get me some more speakers and then eventually I will be responsible for my 120-year-old build to fall down… hmm… let’s see how it goes…

All good things come to an end. All them sweetdays of travellin on my brothers bike are going to end today. Now it's back to public transportation... oh the suffering and misery begins... It really does help having a two wheeler... one saves so much of time, and in today's world every second counts. One more good thing about goin back to public transportation is i'll have to start planning about how i intend to get to my destination on time. One thing is for sure, this loss is gonna help me find myself and my strength again. Off recently i've become too dependent on others, it's time to become INDEPENDENT AGAIN BITCH!!!... >=)

It's been ages since i've posted. I hate this thing all humans have. It's called Emotions. Some of us are just too emotional. Some of us find it very hard to control our emotions. Some of us give others a chance to get the best out of us. I wish i wasn't a part of those SOME OF US. I realise one thing... if you are emotional then you are gonna get your ass FUCKED big time. My New Years Resolution is ... KILL THEM EMOTIONS.