I know I haven’t been posting up for a while now. That’s because I’ve planned something big for myself this birthday. I just hope that it works and goes according to my plans. I’m so anxious about her. Can’t wait for her to come into my life. I guess my life will be complete with her by my side. I seriously dream about her each and everyday these past few weeks, that’s what, is occupying my attention. Infact I’ve already gotten too attached and too in love with her. The only thing that fears me is if she isn’t going to be mine. But I’ll make sure that it doesn’t happen. I will make her my own… wanna know her name. Check this site again next month… cuz that’s when you will find out what’s been in my head and my heart all this while... Better yet... WHO HAS BEEN FILLING UP MY SENSES WITH JOY.... >=)

I LOVE MY PETS...


This is my Peggie


This is my Sniffer

Have you ever given your age a serious thought? One actually fails to realise that time is slipping by. Yesterday I had a revelation when I said that I’m just 22 years old… that statement fell like an H-Bomb. I know that it’s still a pretty young age I am at, but am I actually pretty young? Least of all… PRETTY??? In both cases, I don’t think so. I feel young but it’s the mind that’s getting old… man now I’ve got to start thinking about the future and settling down and shit… can’t be… I think I just need to calm down and chill for a while… I’m gonna konk off at the age of 60 so 60-22 give me about 38 years… WOW that is a long time… Whew! I just scared myself for nothing… nothing’s changed here… just age… >=)

The road can be a very dangerous place to walk on if a woman is behind the wheel… check this incident out. I almost got knocked by a crazie ass woman driver today on my walk to work in the morning. In addition to that, as I was about to cross an intersection I saw another woman driver racing at me. I stopped and allowed her to pass before I made it to the other side of the road. As she passed by she gave me a warm smile (either because she thought of me as a gentlemen or she must have said to herself, “You got lucky bucko! The next guy won’t be so luckie.”) As she passed by and zoomed away (probably to kill someone else) I smiled and said to myself thank God I’m still alive… (My thoughts were still the same… no two ways about it…) >=)

It's a fact. Most women tend to walk diagonally on the road. If y'all can't walk straight don't think that driving is going to be easy. I mean fuck if it wasn't for the footpath i stood on, then i'd surely be a goner today...

This sure has been a very long week. I’ve got so involved with work that its actually helped me forget a few painful past incidents (well not completely but comparatively there has been a change). I went up to the terrace for lunch (that’s where the employees go for their meals) and as I sat there it was very peaceful with no one around. For the first time I was actually at peace since the beginning of this year. No frikin tensions of any sort. I didn’t actually let them resurface. I like being alone these days… I have no reason for choosing to be alone. The terrace nowadays seems like the perfect place where I can go and relax, you know kinda chill out for a while, just get away from all the pain, suffering and shit. Come to think about it for the amount of pain and crap I went through from the beginning of this year, I would probably be living on that terrace… >=

…And so begins my struggle to get what I want at this point in my life. My prime focus is getting that sweet active subwoofer home before my birthday comes (my gift to myself). I’ve already planned out all the expenses and incomes, and done some major cost cuttings. I already feel a great sense of pride in what I do these days. I sit and think about what I have purchased out of my own hard earned money. Let’s see… upgrade the computer, bought a HDD, a CDRW, tons of blank CD’s, TV Tuner Card, Disc Man, Mini boom box, re-coned a pair of ancient 30WRMS speakers, MY SWEET XBOX (which is still at Vilas’ place). Soon I’ll be adding a 140WRMS amplifier and a 150WRMS active subwoofer… I can truly say that I am proud of what I have achieved. Oh I can’t wait for that day to arrive when I come home with the sub. It surely would bring me a great deal of satisfaction. But in order to get that I have to struggle and so begins my struggle to get…. (Read from the beginning of this post… >=)

Note to self... You are not an insomniac... >=)

Oh by the way check out this awesome car my buddie Vilas is working on... picture this on the streets y'all...

02:30 in the morning and my eyelids are starting to get heavy. The struggle to stay awake now as I sit in front of my computer screen at work is not a grave one, since I’ve tuned into hot108 jams on the Internet. I ponder as to why am I doing something like this. Guess I just enjoy doing unexpected things. (Please excuse this post since its fatigue and a whole lotta emotions getting the best of me right now). Just finished typing in about 112 sheets of songs into an Excel Sheet (each sheet containing at least 5 songs while others went up to 50 amounting to about 800+ songs). My fingers are sore and so is my ass… >=( … Got to make it till at least 04:30am so that I can call my superior who blessed me with this task and tell him that the work is completed. He told me that he wanted the job done before tomorrow morning. Tis truly a dogs life I live. The only moment of relief in the past 2 days came from Harsha (shoutout to Harsha - thanks for the conversation, that was just what I needed to get my mind of things…) Life can seriously get one so fucked up in the head sometimes. I’m turning over a new leaf as this month begins. Gonna give my work all the attention as possible and dream at night of my sweet active subwoofer. “Baby you will be mine for sure…”