Wednesday, October 18, 2006


I am feeling a little sad and hurt inside… I wonder what does one do when something bothers them deep inside. Do they keep it to themselves or speak to someone about it so that it helps them feel better or find a solution? Different people – different opinions. I fear telling someone what I truly feel inside cause the one person who I’d like to say them to would probably be the wrong one. I could try but then again I know what the outcome of the conversation would be, so I’ll skip it. I’m gonna take this opportunity to deal with my own issues with myself rather than having someone tell me what to do. I mean after all I am in charge of my own life. If I need help then I’ll learn to help myself. On the other side I’m also trying to build up my tolerance, patients and suppress my anger levels. There are something’s that people say that really upset and disturb me a lot but I don’t tell them. Cause when I do then they feel that I’m being either stupid about it or I’m just too emotional. (so much for respecting me and my feelings) Anyways I ain’t gonna fret. So I’ll just build up on the tolerance levels so that tomorrow they can say whatever they want and it won’t affect me. The world can be a cruel place and I ain’t as cruel as the world is. I ain’t about that…