Dear Blog. Last night was really, really special to me. For once I was able to over come my fear and confess my deepest feelings (which I have been hiding for a very long time), truly and openly to a very dear and special friend. I don’t know how things would be from now on between my friend and me but I just hope that we can still be the same two best and close friends, and share what we share with each other hereafter. There is so much more I wish I could tell my friend and so much more I want to share but fear that my friend may see it otherwise, even though I did make things clear. I haven’t spoken to my friend in the past 9 hours. Maybe I am just being paranoid. I don’t know. But all I can say is that yesterday was one of the most, happiest days of my life and I will never forget that day and the sequence of events that happened as the day unfolded. I would like to say Thank You to God for giving me a day as special as yesterday and pray that I do see brighter days henceforth… with my new close, best, sweet and NICE friend =) With all my heart, Dennie!

(singing)On the first day of Christmas,my true love sent to me. A partridge in a pear tree =)

Thoughts - Confusing. Weird. Disturbing. Perplexing. Want to make them stop. Yet unable to do so. Feelings - Restless. Sadness. Pain. Discomfort. Want to feel better. Yet unable to do so.

BTW - Got a job.

I’m a little disturbed right now as I put this post up. I stepped into the house at about 00:35 and it’s like 01:03 and I am unable to sleep. Saw a terrible, terrible accident between a 6 wheeler truck, an autorickshaw and a car that was completely unrecognizable. My best guess is that it was a purple Fiat Palio. The car was crushed into almost half its size. I was too afraid to look at anything else because apparently the bodies from the whole Carter Road incident gripped my thoughts. And I know there was definitely going to be casualties; I mean the firkin 6 wheeler was a mess by itself. The rickshaw apparently didn’t get as badly damaged as the car. As I passed by the wreckage I could smell diesel and petrol. There were small pieces of glass all over the place. I think the media had got to the scene, will probably check the tabloids tomorrow. I hope no one was hurt. As I rode back home I only thought about how short life can be for anyone. I almost got clipped by an asshole speeding around in his Toyota Corolla a little later on. So the whole accident incident and the whole Corolla idiot, almost sending me on a one way ticket to hell/heaven, made me realize everything can change in a moment. I was just thinking (I know I shouldn’t be) if that Corolla guy had to clip me, if my life had to end tonight – pretty scary thought. Well its incidents like this that make me ride more safely. For all of you guys and girls who think speed thrills – wish you could have seen what I saw at Carter Road that night and tonight. Think about it, SERIOUSLY. Oh in addition to which if there is anything that you need to do or say then don’t wait. I know I have already told all of my friends what they mean to me, but incase they have forgotten then they will know it all over again this Christmas.