I can't understand how love works??? It's really mind boggling... it grips you when you least expected and then when it ends, you are left wondering how the heck did that happen?? I happened to stumble on some pictures of her (THE last ONE in my life) today before i could head out to work. For some reason i wish i could see her and talk to her!! Now that's frikin strange. I've seen these pictures before and i never felt this way. Oh life, how much more will you torment my soul... trying to get over her was hard enough now why refresh memories again >=( ..... MY XBOX, WHY AREN'T YOU BY MY SIDE??? >=(

I'm the one who hardly get's surprises on my walk through life. But last Sunday was shocking... My very first girl Swidel called up and spoke to me after more than 5 years of silence... i seriously didn't know how to react. She called up to apologise for the way she treated me. Said that she was sorry and asked for forgiveness... I WAS SHOCKED!!! After more than 5 years you realise that what you've done it wrong and seek forgiveness??? I believe that "WHEN THE MOMENT'S GONE, THE ESSENCE IS LOST!!!"... anyways i just said forget the past and move on. I just thanked her for the memories and told her that we were young and shit happened, it's part a of life that everyone must go through. The conversation lasted only 5mins and then that was it. i guess she just wanted to clear her conscience and probably move on or something... Good for her. Surprisingly when she called up i missed the one who i truly gave my heart too... >=( ... my last relationship (which btw is over almost as long as it lasted) was the best and by far the longest and sweetest relationship i've ever had. Yeah sure it had it's up's and down's but that's just how the cookie crumbles... Love is such a motherfucker!!! Just when you think you're over it, it makes you realise that you are wrong BIATCH!!! >=D

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, probably because I’ve just been feeling a little down ever since I’ve found out that my best friends dog passed away on the 8^th of May 2005. He was a sweetheart and a very loveable dog. His name was Snoopie and everyone who knew him will miss his presence. I made a little sonnet in memory of Snoopie and sent it to my friend’s mother on her cell phone.

My deepest sympathy to you all I give,
For a sweetheart like Snoopie no longer sniffs,
Love him so much just like y’all do,
His absence now makes, me shed tears too.

WE LOVE YOU SNOOPIE, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS AND WE WILL MISS YOU!!! >=(

I carry a smile on my face right now because I just got an increased pay package… Whoo Hoo!! It’s not much but it’s just enough to get me some basic necessities in life. Like probably a new hard drive, or a graphics card, or another XBOX game, or another MMC for my Nokia N-Gage QD, or a remote control car (Man I so wanted that badly when I was a kid), or (thinking and dreaming dreams that will be a reality eventually)… sometimes I wonder whether I’m growing up… Eh!! I don’t give a #@$%… I’m just living to be happy for the moment...

I was having a conversation online with a very dear and almost, long lost friend. Just want I wanted to relax myself after a long and hectic day and the conversation with her was just what the Doctor ordered. During our conversation I kinda got a little too wrapped up with my feeling that it just blew out of me (“the feeling” for all you frikin perverts…). Guys I know y’all will probably assume that I’m a woman, and probably burst out laughing when you’ve finished reading the next few lines. I’m surprised as to what happened to me all of a sudden

Shed not a tear oh fair one, for if you cry then let me cry with you, so that our tears may form a river on which our friendship would set a sail...

Aaaaahhh… I hate myself!!!! >=)

Life can seriously teach you a lot. I have had way too many incidents in my life that have resulted in me becoming a completely different person. Yes Evolution Exists!!! Anyways enough of that… I made the mistake of going for a fuckin, chewteayeah, laudu, gandu, bhosadika, khunt fuckin CHAKA movie called KAAL… Trust me, like most Hindi movies, this one was so fuckin dirty that I actually felt like having a bath… twice in the same hour. After the movie got some of us friends just hung out and had fun. As always I did my part of being the live wire amongst the crowd. It was fun for me and that’s how I intend to keep things from now on. I have a new saying that I live up to these days. GIVE ONLY HOW MUCH YOU CAN GET BACK. Fuck all of you asses who don’t give but like to receive… bitches!!